pms is so real rn
i just flipped out on a friend for canceling dinner
partially because i was trolling/raging on league because #anniejungleyolo but anyways everything was making me heated up ._.
going to dinner tomorrow to make up for it though tg
i have ugly issues
my acne UGH
im pretty sure im going to lose weight soon cus fuck i walk to work (1mile) and im on my feet for like 4 hours at the job.
maybe ill just get bad joints
ive been drinking a smoothie+ eating a xs curry when i dont go out to eat for the whole day, so thats like 1000 cal
but then the days that i DO go out to eat
jesus someone stop the monster
ugh i want to be a good person
not like goody goody
but just someone that’s good.. like… there for you?
someone who has their life straight- lives happily, thankfully, and excitedly?
and i want to travel. a lot.
i feel like theres just too much to see..
im probably going to major in something that lets me travel.. but i really dont know what x_x.
someone called me ugly today… LOL i was kind of butt hurt but then i realized their opinion doesn’t matter. and hes immature so ill let it slide.
but it did make me want to improve myself. like.. be not like him. he didn’t even know me and thought i would be a failure in life(it was a game but a mean one).. lol.. too bad my gpa is literally 2 higher, like 2—>4 basically, aaaaand i have a job, and im not being a public disturbance all of the time. so, it didn’t make me feel too bad because i know im not what he thinks i am, and he needs to grow up.
eh but it still stings a little bit.
im also a little bit scared that im wearing too much make up nowadays because my acne and scars are getting bad.. :/
i get them monthly, and they literally take a month to go away so its like.. a neverending cycle of bad skin.
i also hate the fourth of july but today’s was fun. sara’s cousin from russia is awesome. she belly dances. im going to learn how to belly dance. its the coolest thing in the world.
anyways i hate it because last year’s fourth of july brings some boohoo memories about the time i yoloed and shouldnt have yoloed
i want a boyfriend. but im not looking for one because i want a REALL one. ykno? someone that’s kind and genuine? idc about looks anymore honestly.. hot guys, sure.. but then theyre conceited and don’t invest in relationships because they can get a new one right away.
i want to have a grip on my life but theres just SO MUCH GOING ON!
i need a clean slate. start one thing at a time and add them on one by one. not happening though. i guess a part of life is learning how to deal.